Yep. It's been that kind of week. I feel like I've been on a bad rollercoaster ride all dang week. Up then down. Then up again! Oh, but then right back down...
ALL. WEEK.
I've been very stressed over many things that I'll just breifly name - money, Christmas presents, school, the future, what to study FOR the future, family drama, etc. Yeah. A pretty decent list for an 18-year-old, but then again I've never been you're average teenager I suppose.
Even though I don't handle stress that well in the first place, I've been majorly confused about so many things. I'm worried about how my college is going to be paid for first and foremost, but I kind of have to figure out what the heck I want to do first before I can even worry about that. At first I wanted to do social work when I started dual-enrollment. Then I thought maybe child care or childhood education. However, now I'm thinking about changing that to journalism. It's something that I've always wanted to do and had a passion for as well. However, I'm a very practical thinker. And while I would LOVE more than anything to chase my dream career of getting a major in journalism and a minor in fashion marketing to go work at Cosmopolitan in New York, NY, I just know that is a dream I'd be chasing for the rest of my life...
At times this week I've been so upset about career crap I want to cry. I actually want to cry my eyes out right now and just throw something and scream at the top of my lungs. BUT, I'm pretty sure that would not be very appealing to my co-workers...
Anywho, I am going to be changing my schedule to fit a path to a degree in journalism. It's what I want to do and I'm not going to let anyone stand in my way. Even though I have to face the fact that I'll probably never work at Cosmo, I can still pursue something in the field. So that's what I plan to do. Sure I may have to get out of Mississippi to actually do anything with that, but that's fine by me. I love this state, but it's time I started thinking more about my future and what I want to do as a career. Who knows. As my mom said last night, "Maybe one day you could be the next 'Devil Wears Prada.' You know, just not as big of a b****." Haha. Gotta love my mother.
The ups of my week were decent though. I finally heard back from the lady about Matt's Christmas present. That was an EXTREME weight off of my chest which I am very greatful for because I was about to go crazy trying to come up with a solution on such short notice. :P
Maybe I can make a good weekend for myself. I sure hope so anyway. That would be the best end to such a crazy week.
Well, I guess that's all I have for right now. It's a lot condensed into a few short paragraphs, but I didn't want to bore you all with the extensive details. Haha. Have a great weekend everyone!
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