Yep. And I sure did have myself one today.
Lately I've been struggling with coming to terms with "adulthood" and what that really means for me. For me, it meant giving up dreams of being a writer (or anything else in the artistic career field) and staying in Columbia, MS. At first that really upset me, but I'm starting to come to terms with it. The biggest thing that bothers me is all of the expectations my family/friends/whoever else have for me. They all think I should be someone big and successful in a huge town, but that's not really what I want . . .
My biggest dream? A family. I want to be a wife and a mom more than ANYTHING else in this world. I'd give up my beige heels to be married to the love of my life right now. For those of you who don't know, those are my FAVORITE shoes and I've got a massive shoe addiction anyway. :P
So settling in Columbia as a preschool teacher or maybe someday a kindergarten teacher is just fine with me. My life with Matt and our future children means more to me than any journalism career in New York City.
Now the hardest thing for me to deal with is that for the next couple of years I'll still have to stay in school and not be married. Yeah, that really sucks. I freaking hate it, but I've gotta just be patient. Someday I'll graduate college and marry Matt, but right now I just need to come to terms with the fact that this is my life at the moment. One day I'll have those things I want so badly, but patience is a virtue. One I've gotta learn to adapt to. Lol.
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